selayang pikir di hari baru

andai hati bisa disimpan dalam kotak kaca
apakah dunia tanpa rasa?

biggest guilt :

a resentful emotion that occurs when a person lacks another's superior quality, achievement or possession and wishes that the other lacked it. 



neither shall you desire anything that belongs to your neighbour.

tanya tanya yang semakin nyata.

rindu itu lalu menyapa.

menyeruak masuk tanpa banyak tanya,
menyusup masuk ke dalam jiwa.


tidakkah waktu telah takluk oleh kita?
berdua, yang menganyam cinta?

karena bukankah kita sudah berbangga
ketika berdua menjadi nyata,
tidak lagi hanya bayang semata.

tapi kenapa nyata lalu menumbuhkan tanya
ragu-ragu yang lalu semakin meraja,
dan semua menjadi rusak saja.

jadi harus bagaimana
ketika hati menjadi buta,
dan kata hanya jadi senjata.




rindu itu lalu menyapa.

menyeruak masuk tanpa banyak tanya,
menyusup masuk ke dalam jiwa.

karena kata sudah lama tak bicara.

close enough to start a war
all that I have is on the floor
God only knows what we're fighting for
all that I say, you always say more

I can't keep up with your turning tables
under your thumb I can't breathe

so, I won't let you close enough to hurt me
no, I won't rescue you to just desert me
I can't give you what you think you gave me
it's time to say goodbye to turning tables
to turning tables

under haunted skies I see you
where love is lost your ghost is found
I braved a hundred storms to leave you
as hard as you try, no, I will never be knocked down

next time I'll be braver
I'll be my own savior
when the thunder calls for me
next time I'll be braver
I'll be my own savior
standing on my own two feet

turning tables - adele

komitmen jadi belenggu?

karena kemudian kebersamaan menjadi label semata,
hadiah jadi sekadar ada saja.
tidak bisa sembarang mengungkap rasa?

dia ingin lebih,
bukan ini yang dia cari.

bukan sekadar mimpi-mimpi yang membuat iri hati.


dia ingin teman sejati,
selalu ada dan tidak lalu menghakimi.


tidakkah itu yang abadi?

catatan kecil di halaman-halaman berikut.

tidak percaya yang jadi luka.
dan saya tidak ingin hidup selamanya berdarah.

too much insecurities can eventually change the truth.

what it's like

it's like living a test everyday.

i need a partner,
not a lecturer or teacher.

looking back,
i had a really fun ride.


thank you, universe.

kosong

apakah dia jadi berarti ketika menjadi isi?

currently listening :

for all the love that we shared,
for all the times that we bled,
for all the paths we walked down,
how could you do this to me?

your laughter under the stars,
the times you slept in my car,
the people we made fun of,
how could you do this to me?

oh, look at me now,
i’m falling to pieces.
i don’t know what to do now,
i’m lost within this fire.

how could you - triangle (ost. perahu kertas)